12/29/2006

Fear of Failure

I generally don't fear anything. This is what I have lead myself to believe, until recently. There has been an underlying fear that I have chosen to ignore. I have come to realize that in order for me to succeed, I must overcome it.

To be more specific, I only fear failure if I have truly given it my all. I suppose it's a fear of testing my potential. I couldn't imagine how I would feel if all of my efforts yielded meager results. My excuse so far has been the fact that I don't apply myself. I fear what might happen if I actually do. I've been avoiding it so far.

No matter what my limits may be, I need to test them, examine them, experiment with them, and finally embrace them.

12/07/2006

Motivation + Inspiration

So here I am sitting on a huge pile of work at two o'clock in the morning carrying out my usual activities of procrastination. I eventually resort to a seemingly endless gaze of my desktop, head in hand, waiting for some inspirational hand to pop out of my notebook screen to smack me in the face. No such luck. Despite my purposeful placement of the drawing I find most inspirational, I remain unmotivated. It seems as though motivation and inspiration are separate entities. If something I admire to the highest degree doesn't motivate me, what will?

Something has to change. I don't know what, but I hope it happens soon.

12/03/2006

"College Hoodie" Follow Up

During one day at work this guy walked in wearing a t-shirt sporting the text: "community college". I was halfway in between the back room and the main floor, so one step to my left and I was free to laugh my ass off. I am so going to purchase that shirt. I'm also getting the shirt that just says "college", I think they're hilarious.

Here are a couple random quotes I stumbled over during a random search:

"Are you sick of every Tom, Dick, and Shaniqua with a "College" shirt on? Most of the people we've seen with those on wouldn't be fit to hold John Belushi's vomit bucket. Show'em your sense of humor, and career ambition to become an electrician, with this "Community College" shirt.



How many highschool kids wear Belushi's shirt? Tons ... but where are all the big fat party animals? They're in community college learning to be plumbers, locksmiths, meth engineers and more. With our specialized program, you too can earn a degree in partying down, while showing your thrifty side (in the form of a t-shirt). Throw the shirt on, grab some fellow students and get to the party. Before you know it, you'll be doing tequila shots with that grouchy 50 year-old classmate who got laid off from the plant."

- Source

....and

"A navy blue t-shirt with block lettering that reads "College". Great for college students, and those who don't subscribe to that whole higher education philosophy. 100% cotton."

-Source

Which leads me to the question: what exactly is "higher education"?

I would guestimate that even though my school is geared toward "higher education", as to say: a continuation from high school, only about ten percent of the students are actually enrolled and participating in the effort.

Hopefully that makes sense.

Moving

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